A little update. It turns out that Jake’s Thyroid meds are out again, which will explain why he has been feeling so lacklustre of late. Hopefully an increase in meds will result in more time out of the bed than in It. He has also been suffering from migraines and as a precaution has requested a brain scan, just to be sure that cancer is not the cause. The consultant has agreed to this request, but we have to wait till February when his next scans are already scheduled.
We have had a nice time lately with my mum staying, then Jake’s mum and dad staying, intertwined with a few much appreciated social invitations. So it’s definitely not all bad. On the whole we are happy.
Having a bit of a sentimental day today – not, surprisingly, about Jake and I, but instead about days long gone by.
I haven’t been sleeping at all well lately and last night was no exception. I decided to listen to my body for a change and rest, so I put my feet up and turned on Sky. Somehow I ended up engrossed in replays of various ‘New Kids on the Block’ videos.
As a kid I was a huge fan, and the songs evoke memories, mostly of being incredibly young and naive; in some ways it doesn’t seem that long ago. I had a huge crush on Joey and looking at him now, how he looked then, he is a child! How quickly I have gotten old. How quickly life has gotten serious. Back then everything seemed so intense, but really, what on earth did I have to worry about? I had braces, I had spots, I felt ugly, and I longed for everyone to like me; I wish that was all I had to worry about now.
I wouldn’t swap my family life for anything, but sometimes I think it would be nice to spend just a day back as a kid, to have NKOTB as my world rather than this constant worry.